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Its been about that time [30 Aug 2006|11:48pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

yea its been about that time that things change......no one reads this ne more so it doesnt matter what i write... it kinda feels better that way....after loving someone so long even if it was wrong it feels so empty without that person in my life....alot less painful yet empty at the same time...i dont understand the way i think sometimes....it feels like ive lost soo much and given up a whole bunch yet....what i have now is seemingly perfect and what i had was killing me...i know it was and everyone saw it. i never knew someone could miss something that was killing them. its probably me just getting used to a life without the struggle of keeping something alive that was never breathing in the first place. moreso fabricated than nething. but why did i want something so bad when all the time i knew it wasnt what i wanted.. i know why now. becausei told myself that once things were official eveything would change. somehow i would get what i needed out of the relationship. the tuth is that i would never ever change that relationship and i would never get what i wanted no matter how hard i tried it would never have happened but i continued to tell myself that in just a little more time a little more pain and a little more trying i would get something more than what i had been getting all along....nothing....

i'll love him forever and ill never forget him.. however he is no longer who i want to be with ever again. nothing could change that.

and to you....i love you so much...you are my everything and u are the one i wanna be with. no one can take this away from us i love you

goodnight

love

eat it

begging for more poison [06 Aug 2005|10:00pm]
[ mood | pessimistic ]

i can't even feel your kisses
they're for all the wrong reasons
i know very well what it is that you want
im in it for the feeling youre in it for the fun

your words mean nothing to me
what could mean everything to me
but yet i hear them empty
just another attempt you think i cant see

let me stay long enough to get you off
then push me off...keep me away
pull me close with the lies
then cut the ties
we ever had and let me go
but come back and keep me waiting.

yet i give you what you want
anything just to be close to you
tell myself you feel for me
to keep you near i do what you want me to

you so easily break me
and you dont feel a thing
but this is slowely killing me
you can see it but don't do a thing

let me stay long enough to get you off
then push me off...keep me away
pull me close with the lies
then cut the ties
we ever had and let me go
but come back and keep me waiting

you think i dont see it
you think i dont know
baby call me crazy
for lettin you use me so

let me stay long enough to get you off
then push me off...keep me away
pull me close with the lies
then cut the ties
we ever had and let me go
but come back and keep me waiting

eat it

"when i come around!" [23 Jun 2005|02:53pm]
its thursday and i wont be back til tuesday.....yessa im so excited i cant wait to get away from things for a while just relax and get my partay on! o well ill see u in a week hers some more quotes



"let me stay long enough to get you off
then push me off...keep me away
pull me close with the lies
then cut the ties
we ever had and let me go
but come back and keep me waiting...."

"never did i know the things i could feel"

"and im not so sure that im sure of anything, any more"

"why my squishy has to yell at me SOME much...." ---hehe erika
eat it

"....never seem to wanna dance ne more" [11 Jun 2005|04:07pm]
[ mood | numb ]

"i dont wanna sleep, cuz wats the point in tryin to dream anymore?"

"ive never been so scared
to lose someone as now
ive fallen fast and hard
i love exactly how
you make
me feel

but i know that you're your best
when next to who your missin
and i know its not me
you wish that you were kissin
goodnight,
tonight

theres nothin like the way
i miss you when you're gone
but i know ill have to let you go
but before i do this song
goes out
to you..................i love you"

"the rope i had been grippin
turned to sand
and now its gone"

"i've got no one to rely on
except for me"

"if only your kisses were'nt shallow and you lips filled with emptiness,
if only all your reasons for holdin me were'nt wrong
if only you knew how much you meant to me
you wouldnt hurt me so bad"

1 full bellie| eat it

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